you without you [Tegomass] Chapter 3
- Thinking of me? And why not?
"Because I care about a few days ago.
Ah ... I see ... so it was. I was hoping to tell me something else, and it turns out it was only because he was worried for me, something told me in his eyes that did not, but would have to investigate myself.
"Well, I told you nothing was wrong ^ ^. I think I do not sleep too well lately, and I get tired more than usual at work.
Without warning, pulled his face to mine, and I noticed as I climbed the colors sure looked like a tomato.
had before me the face of my best friend looking at me with those brown eyes that seemed extremely deep, and could see his face of confusion to the situation, because it sure was surprised to see me blushing.
Before he could open his mouth to say something, his phone was ringing, so he got up and went to answer.
only I did not even listen to talk to, so I decided to pack my things and leave from there. I did not wait to hang, and when I saw something out the door with his head down, I could see hanging in a hurry, and then I grabbed the strap of the bag.
- Where do you go without saying goodbye?
"I did not interrupt the call, so I was already home.
- And since when you go home without saying goodbye to me?
"Since lately I have to go just to all sides .... And from that salts Keii much more than me!
already said it, and there was no backtracking. I needed only to see his reaction to what was said, and would have to be thinking about me too a response.
- Are you jealous, Masuda?
- Yes!
- And that why?
At this point, what could, or should be, answer me? What was jealous because he loved him? What I felt a bit lonely since we were no longer together anywhere, and since I did not come to my house every night?
"I can not tell you. I have to go, my mother expected me at home, and it's too late.
Without giving him time to say anything more, I left the room running and sat down, somewhat later, in a chair in reception, where people used to sit for the record companies, and johnny's future.
had to let my body and my mind became calm. When I decided to get up and go from there, I heard as some voices of juniors did some noise: there appeared to prepare the Shonen Club this week, and now were going to take something all together.
I turned around to see who they were, and I saw the ABC and Kis-my-ft 2, the earlier group to which I belonged for a time, until it covered the M group.
- Oh! "Masuda-san? What are you still here?
was Fumito, the ABC, who asked and who seem to see me before the others.
-finished rehearsing for today and was resting for a while. And you what? "Preparing the Shonen Club, right?
- Yes, "replied Goseki, who ABC was also in the
-Gambaro ^ ^.
- Want to join us for a drink? I do not think it takes us a lot, but certainly well despejas. you asked Hiromitsu, the Kis-my-ft 2.
-Um ... he planned to go home. I have not really wanted to party, guys. Good luck with the program on Sunday, and rehearse a lot.
I definitely left the building. I had no desire to go there because it was likely to meet with me some more johnny.
Okay ... now what could I do? Where could I go? This seemed to be growing worse, I was seeing ... or what was said, or end ill. Had too many things happening to me over the head for to and days, and had to drop them all. I was always told that boys do not cry ... why not? We are people too, right? Why is always reserved for the girls crying? Should not show weakness to the rest of my colleagues, nor to the rest of Johnny's ... but why not to mourn at home, with my mother? What would I do if I was one of the most sensitive of the group? No one could or should be blamed as well. Before leaving the others would see my weakness, I would die.
Before I knew it began to rain slowly and my phone rang, alerting me a message: Koyama.
feel upset so late, but it was to remind the photo shoots tomorrow: do not be late! The plan will always, as we are distributed in pairs, with the usual: Tego and Massu, Shige and I, while Yamapi and Ryo will be for free.
Tomorrow morning, we have to attend the Duet and Myojo, while the afternoon we will play Potato and Wink Up If there be any new, I warn you all.
Good night!
Once again, I played a duet with Tego. Why were so perfect couple? Ah ... I had no choice but to abide by the orders they gave me, and maybe if I stopped doing that, Tego feel bad ... shit! Here was again the damn hobby of always thinking what others feel! And I'm soaking up!
tore desperate to run like the subway, where the stairs went down packed, and I could take the train passing by.
I came home soaked and tired, just wanted to eat something and lie on the bed to rest, since that day he had experienced many emotions, and on top was pretty sure it would fish a cold.
I got the sms Tego who sends me every morning. It seemed that my mother had already left early because there was no one at home, just above the breakfast table. I ate quickly, took my things and went straight to the subway, to be among the first to reach the company for not getting back fights.
In the subway, and met students and people working in offices with the bustle of every day, so I tried to pass unnoticed as possible from the crowd, and I think I got it ...
Upon arrival at the company, I went the meeting point we had, and where not found anyone yet. I sighed deeply as a sign protest, and there I was waiting for the others arrived. It was very strange, because whenever we had to go to photo shoots, we were all together ...
- Good morning, Massu!
I turned it back was to the door, and saw with Tego Koyama. Tego I thought I saw that look down at me, but I did not misinterpret things, so I just respond cheerfully, as he usually did every morning.
"Good morning.
- Are you alone?
"Yes ... for the moment yes, but you have arrived and no longer ^ O ^.
- Do not know anything about Yamapi and company?
-No.
Soon came Yamapi, Ryo and Shige, and we went to the offices of the magazine Duet, which would make us the photos for the magazine.
"Let's see ... start with Tego and Massu. The rest can go cambiándoos clothes and prepare for your photos. Let's see ... how about a photo shoot family plan? That certainly calls for the fans.
When the photographer said that, I wanted to die ... photos couples plan? I will give you something ... if I have to be only a few centimeters yours ... I will die on the set of the session. Guys, you can go on collecting.
- Is there a problem, Massu? "Said Tego, who had seen how I had put a little pale.
"No ... no ..." I said with a nervous smile.
"Then let's start now, I have still photos of the rest of your companions. You will begin sitting here on my back, and you have to pretend to be sad. No matter the reason, only aparentadlo.
not think I needed much reason to put that face in the picture was clear what was my reason. Sideways, I could see the face of Tego, who also seemed to be sad, why?
"Well, now damages the back and get on face to face, please. Now you must show your best smile, OK? We will contrast of photos between good and evil. Your photos are bad back, and good photos smiling face to face.
Slowly, I turned to face me with Tego while trying to smile. When I approached, I found myself again with that smile that had melted the fan's most prized, and that certainly made my colors go up again, because I just noticed me.
We looked at the camera smiling as he went around to another of the study, and I was already getting on my nerves and upset lost: the situation was too much for me. He was about to explode, when the photographer said
"Well, you ^ ^ you are already. Have been beautiful photos, sure to delight fans. Koyama and Shige tell them to pass, please.
I left almost ran out of the room and went to tell Koyama and Shige to bring up. Then I sat in a chair and sighed wearily. I lowered my head to hide his arms, when I noticed that someone had before. I looked up and saw him with a drink in hand.
Thanks.
I took it without thinking, I opened it and drank it almost flip. I felt like I had his eyes fixed on me, but I decided to ignore it because I had been pretty badly during the shoot.
-Massu .... "I can ask you something?
"Yes, tell me. What?
"That I know myself. What's wrong with you these days. You declined, seems to be having problems concentrating, and also not eating well. I got really worried.
Go ... again, just hit the kindly heart that was me. It was neither the time nor the place to say what my heart felt, and did not answer. I shook my head in denial, like nothing was happening, and tried to dodge the question.
"Nothing, as I've said many times this week.
"That's why I ask you both, because I think it's nothing. We ... you know you can trust me. Whatever it is, I assure you that I will support you.
"I do not think ..." I said in a whisper, he should not listen because it did not say anything about it .- And your what? Do you have something you can tell?
-Um ... I think someone around me starts to like, but I can not say, let the person say it is. I do not know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, because sometimes my heart seems to shrink when you see the person, but I have yet to gather my thoughts and my head.
"I'm sure, is the person who is, you know very well match, Tego. Besides, you're very good person to people who really matter to you, and always know give advice well given time. Do not worry about any of that: I am sure that the person you want, you also will want you.
"Thanks ^ ^. Why do not you speak to me of your stuff? What worries you?
"Well ... I do not know if I should tell you ... but bah, is the same. I hope that will not leave here. Well ... I think that was some time before, I've fallen for someone to spend time. I dare not tell for fear of rejection ... but ... anyway ... if you could know how it feels, I lift a weight off, but surely having a bad ending. At the end of the day, it is not anything nice to break your heart, right?
And then I looked into the eyes directly: he wanted to try to tell it was him who I liked, it was for him who was going something wrong these days past, it was his fault that I concentrate on what did. I wanted to say many things, but none out of my mouth, and he was not the right place.
"Do not listen to what I said, okay? At the end of the day, surely nothing. Forget it, okay? ^ ^
I got up and went to throw the can into the trash, listening as we had to go back to gather everyone to go to the next session photos, this time in another of the popular magazines.
In that session, luckily for me, we were all together, so there was no problem, especially after the conversation he had with Tego above ... did not want to ruin my friendship with him just for something.
After the photos, we had about three hours to walk around alone, so I went for a walk around the area of Shibuya. I guess nobody saw me out because I did not say anything. I turned to look towards the study that was left behind, to see if there is anyone out there to not have to walk alone, when I saw something that left me hair tip: Tego Koyama surrounding his arms, while Tego was leaning against the wall.
I stayed perfectly still to see what I did not know how to react, and less as it should look at their faces after I had seen, of course. I tried to move the site many times, but I could not: his eyes were fixed on the scene, and I would move there unless I crawl.
Soon after, I could see Tego zafaba closure of Koyama, and directed his gaze towards me. His face was of complete surprise, of course, and tried to speak but could not. Do not let me even saying anything either, just went away fleeing the scene. Do not know what to do: look askance but there was still paralyzed Tego. I felt like an idiot: how was leaving him behind me? You must think I'm an idiot. I find it impossible to contain the anger that I have, now, I just want to hit two, do not care to be friends.
I reached the street corner. I sat, trying to calm down when people went i came while looking at me weird, but within seconds, a voice shouted from afar:
- Massu's! - Because I had to follow? Now it was at least wanted to see ...
- What do you want? - My voice sounded heavier than I would have liked. I did not want and answer, but it really was angry ... but I did not know if more than anger, jealousy were just emerging.
"We can talk .... There are many things I want to tell, and here I can not. - I think that there was no getting around the issue. I had to try to be honest with myself, and listen. I am sure I will say of who is in love, so it was better to hear it as soon as possible, can you go home?
"Okay.
just followed him along the way but neither said a word. Upon arriving home, his mother. She greeted me very excited and I knew he wanted to talk to me, but Tego took me to his room without saying anything to her, I felt bad for the poor woman, who was somewhat surprised.
When entering, I sat in bed, I knew the worst was coming, I tell him everything.
-Massu 's believe that this can not continue like this, I feel I go crazy, do not look at me and moved his hands nervously. Sure what I was going to say, had nothing to do with me ... Now, I began to wonder why he agreed to go home ... just had to hear and you would, right?
"Just spit it out. I did not want to accept, listen and I wanted to escape from that room, I sure would reveal something unpleasant to my ears ... and my heart.
"I will not say anything .... Solo ... - I look into your eyes and quickly came to me, leaving me surprised: Tegoshi Yuya was kissing me.
Surprisingly, I could not depart, it seemed that I had been stuck there ... Although I was taken by surprise, I think I ended up responding to his kiss, and that made him even more baffled.
My heart would rollover while we were still kissing, especially when we were looking at each other in the eye that looked more like a scene from a shojo manga that a real experience.
Without warning, Tego's mother came and stood at the door, and we red as tomatoes.
-Tegosh .... Sorry, do not want to disturb.
-E .... This is not what it seems, "said kaachan. Tego, who was redder than tomatoes.
He turned and shut the door died of shame. The worst thing was that we had seen ... and now we were going to do? Perhaps most troubling was now face the day to day, without telling anyone and without the media found out, since they were the worst parts in relationships.
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Contigo without you [Chapter 3]
"Pacion crazy"
That should say ... it was now time to confess everything that was once for all, this was the time but more than I thought about it and wanted to say the only words that came out were the wrong
"Because I care about a few days ago.
I look sad but after a pause, very crestfallen
pronounced "Well, I told you nothing was wrong ^ ^. I think I do not sleep too well lately, and I get tired more than usual at work.
not want to lie more to massu, and see worries me maybe this going through a bad time and not the best time to tell all, it was time we were alone, and needed to know and if he was going through the same, although I'm still not sure what you really feel the ...
But ... I really feel I have to say something .... At least of what's happening to me for my bad luck my phone began to ring just then my mother was concerned at the time, was supposed to arrive early because I had not thought to try to stay alone with massu ... but strangely took his things and wanted to leave without even saying goodbye, it never happened, I always hoped to finish what he had to answer past that things were not like before? How we had alienated so much without even realizing it? What happened to our friendship? What was wrong with our feelings? Perhaps they were too different ...
"Since lately I have to go just to all sides .... And from that salts Keii much more than me! Listen to massu
when I remove from my thoughts ... but that's what I meant by those words ... is this thinking wrong words? I had to clarify this now
- Are you jealous, Masuda?
- Yes!
- And that why?
was not my intention to disturb massu with my question but I needed to get to the bottom of this matter, the sooner the better
Massu eluded my question, I said something about his mother and left, what else could I do? I could not push harder for you to tell me what was happening if insurance would not tell me it was for something ... it was best to let things happen but for some strange reason I was mad at me ...
Walked, I needed air, the thought made me ill but needed to talk to someone ... maybe it was not a good idea but ...
-oe! ... shoto matte! - The girl seems to stop immediately recognized ... maybe my voice was the only person I could vent at a time like
- What yuya? - I look a little annoyed
- no matter what the ... again ... we now
This is a girl I know for a long aiko ... she always had a crush on me, a few weeks ago, I said he was not cared if I did not want it ... just wanted a night with me, not because ... I'm against it, accepting his proposal ... within seconds he was taken from my arm and took me as soon as possible to be on the door of a motel, turned my stomach What was it that was doing? Was not over and we were wondering about in the room ...
- I can ask why you changed ...- the street with my lips, I felt helpless, I could not say anything to massu, and I was going crazy with these feelings, needed clarification, and what better than this to find out if they really did not feel anything to be with a woman ... for sure this would make me change my mind ... and everything would return to normal
She seemed surprised, but answered my kiss as I pushed the bed, leaned against her, was kissing with open eyes, I felt like in the drama when all I was gachibaka indifferent, but this time was quite different, she hugged me and pulled me towards it swayed me to do just that, he was nervous and my legs a little tuning.
- Etto ... yuya can close your eyes ... I get nervous - his voice I relax a little and smiled naturally
- sorry, I have no experience ...
- your lips say something else - kissed me again and I was flattered by their words, their quality and their hands were hugging me out of reality, it was as if we were just the two of us in this world
I did not realize when I remove myself jacket and pull to one side while kiss her, she lifted my shirt directly touching my body felt like a chill through my body right away, was something exquisite to feel it, I was enjoying every second I take off her shirt while taking my hand and put it in your chest, my cheeks flushed at the contact, everything was well until it because I remembered the sad face and words of massu I felt so bad ...
"Since lately I have to go just to all sides .... And from that salts Keii much more than me!
Stop a moment to kiss her while she took off her blouse and she kept touching me, but I felt bad, I could not get massu face of my mind, I shook my head trying stop thinking about it and decided to remove her bra and leaned harder on it ... I felt the heat through my body ... a wild desire took hold of me and was starting to excite me with kisses and caresses ...
-ahhh - aiko was moaning in my ear ... I could not help listening pleasure caused me ever known me before ... it with both hands, moving my body to make me feel better, without any shame on my pants she was playing, causing an erection and ... What to do? Was everything all right? ... The girls if I'm excited but then that is how I feel about massu ... I thought I was becoming homosexual but not ...
- forgive me ... you guide me I have no experience, tell him I did not know her from shame as I did not care if he knew something
- I told you nothing happened ^ ^ - I could not help massu immediately remembered, had said the same words that ... close and kissed me but this time it was not I thought of ... but on the contrary, in imagine ... they were kissing Massu's lips ... although I feel a little scared I have to admit the truth, what most want is to kiss him, I could feel it was he who was kissing me ... until ...
- Massu ... - came out of my mouth inadvertently remove her dead stop your hands off my crotch and pushed me aside.
- I said I did not mind that I want ... but something very different is that you like someone else ... and I use to think I'm that person ... - came out of the room with his clothes in his hand and left me there, full of desire and a little confused .... But without doubt was the best, I was not thinking with reason, I get carried away by anger, and confusion that night I could not sleep very well
I woke my mother and did not have very good appearance after dressing and grooming you send the message to the massu not need much time for those things, like every day I spend Koyama to look at him I could not help thinking that massu was right, I go out with Koyama in all directions and accidentally let massu increasingly alone, if I think about it .... I'm just running from the things ... I am the worst
The photo assignment was in touch with me massu partners, did not seem very happy on the news as I expected, I love it when we took pictures together, we had to pretend be sad ... it was easy but after looking at the face of dissatisfaction that had massu, surely did not want anything with me, I'm an idiot, we were back so her face does not look sad ... for sure did not have to pretend much I knew my friend was having a hard time but still did not know why ... and that saddened me even more, the type asked us sonriéramos her nose and, as expected to do something, so I was worried look massu did not want to see those eyes full of sadness, I turned around slowly and I gave him my best smile trying to be as spontaneous and natural as possible ... he also did it but something caught my attention ... greatly. He blushed at me ... Why do you blush? I do not get my hopes and just wait for release and the rest we have to make your photos ... I followed massu to try again knowing what was going but he dodged my questions and seemed at ease with my presence, I asked what I happened to me and try a
indirect
-Um ... I think someone around me starts to like, but I can not say, let the person say it is. I do not know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, because sometimes my heart seems to shrink when you see the person, but I have yet to gather my thoughts and my head.
But just evaded the typical "I'm sure, is the person who is, you know correspond very well" and with more things that I did not hear just nodded, thinking how to tell that person was then ... much ask you to tell me what was going on so let me leave me something very
thoughtful
"Well ... I do not know if I should tell you ... but bah, is the same. I hope that will not leave here. Well ... I think that was some time before, I've fallen for someone to spend time. I dare not tell for fear of rejection ... but ... anyway ... if you could know how it feels, I lift a weight off, but surely having a bad ending. At last, after all, is not nice that you break the heart, right?
I did not know how to interpret his words and I just keep quiet, the hours passed, the rest of the photos were group but still hovered massu words in my head Koyama I notice it and call me a little upset, try to avoid it with things that they were not the case, but insisted and cornered me against the wall, but would not say anything
- Are you well for massu respond? - I could do .... I answered that in part it was, waiting for me to let go but did not, so I let go of having to push a little but blank Koyama story to the distance I see clearly everything looked puzzled massu wanted to say something but what?, whatever he said in a moment .... Could cause problems, not wanting to stay and massu was running and I was standing there doing nothing, I followed him and what extent, do not know what to say so with the excuse that she could not tell I had nothing there, invite him home and to my surprise he accepted, wanted us to talk his way home, but it was better to tell him everything in my house, not hiding what he felt would and was determined about it when we got home, greet Kassar and we went immediately to my room at the moment nothing mattered more than massu
- Massu's believe that this can not continue like this, I feel I go crazy "and was releasing could not back down now, I have to tell you what I feel may not to know whether it is for me to ease this weight I feel every day
- Just say it once. I accept- sounded curt and unkind that made me doubt for a second but I decided I no longer hide my true feelings no matter what happens next.
- Do not say anything .... Solo ... - you look at waiting for something to tell me that it was wrong but could not find the fast-approaching me and though trembling kissed, never felt anything like that, just having my lips together with those of the was a complete ecstasy, and it was more when I felt that he was responding to my kiss, I felt an indescribable happiness, no matter anything else, I was happy, we left a little and we locked eyes ... I could not help my mind is wine show song together "Kiss ~ Kaerimichi no love song "Looking
in the same direction
your lips are close ...
beats are increasingly strong
was going to sing this piece when my kaas suddenly entered and saw us to centimeters.
-Tegosh .... Sorry, do not want to disturb.
-E .... This is not what it seems, kaachan.-because it appears just at a time like this, I look and left the room.
think
What bothered me ... but there were worse things were coming, I sensed, but no matter how many things had to do to be together. We see now that kaas was not just to gossip
the
listen Even if the world is against you and protect you even
I love you, no need for words
you, my last kiss, forever
And taking his face turned to kiss his hand ... only me matter now
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