Massu.
After kissing me again, I asked
- Why Why do not you tell me before? - and I noticed as I walked away a little while felt like the room was becoming dark.
- What if you had not felt the same? then I would have felt worse, and would not put our friendship into a commitment. I was not sure what you felt ... till ...
"Even I'm not sure how I feel ..." He got up and went to plug the light to look better, I'm sure I will not hurt you .- ... but still I can not understand my feelings ...
That left me in shock ... what if I did not understand ... because I had done that? I decided to ask.
-then ... What did you feel just now? if you do not understand your feelings ... I need to explain that it was before, and that felt real.
seemed uncomfortable with the question, but I did because I had to know what the hell was I felt.
-Etto ... I felt a great happiness, just touch your lips ... I went crazy ... I saw
, after telling me this, blushed as he sat on the bed. Before you start to interpret things on my own, I decided to finish listening to what he had to tell me I did not want me delusions.
"But I can not believe ... I like men ... that's what we have not I can understand ... not what I feel for you but what puzzles me quite the contrary ... the fact that ...
suddenly fell silent and stared at the door: it was as if sensing that someone was listening. Then, as ignoring what he had done, he returned to resume the conversation with me:
-Yo ... I love you ... as something more than friends, I can not stop thinking about you ... even if I am .... kissing another person.
Oh god! I just left surprised. But still, I do not quite believe that this is true. It's too real to be real! Are you sure that this is not a dream, right?
-If you're so baffled ... then ... Do not you think it would be better to put your feelings in order, and then continue with this? I do not want to force you to anything, much less see you suffer.
I could see in her eyes and was staring, and it was something usual for him. He seemed worried about something, but did not get to guess what it was ...
-Yo ... well ... your ... I like you, you know y. .. I saw that one day something strange ... it was all for it ... I dared not say anything ... I was afraid that if you put it, mirases me wrong ...
After saying this, stared at the floor and I could not look at him. That night we were going through the two, we was serving to be sincere in one way or another. I already missed this kind of talks between the two, which served to remove another barrier between the two.
-I .... I ... I want you to try ... no matter what others say I want ... we're together.
Pum! God, what I'm saying now? It was what I wanted to hear, sir! Something caught me off guard, but is also true that he was waiting for me say: I can be something of a coward to say this. Then I looked up and nailed in her brown eyes.
- What?
He got out of bed and approached me. Actually, I was somewhat unsafe when answering, but I take chances, knowing that maybe, but now I was saying all that, maybe it was not yet entirely clear in his heart, but I decided to answer.
-try it ... do not lose anything, ne?
Then I smiled again and ran to hug me again, as he kissed me again.
- Boys! Dinner is served! To eat!
was the voice of Tego's mother, who warned us to go down to dinner now. I wondered who would have thought the woman to see us before when he opened the door ... and if he had heard the conversation before ...
I let go and smiled again as he knew. Certainly, Tego had a smile to please the fansgirls, but could also encourage others and love people, why not say.
"I think we'll have to tell her the truth ... ne?" He said Tego.
"Yes ... after what I saw ... you asked what they were doing ... at least she must know it ... then ... we must tell the guys, ne?
- THE BOYS!?
left me almost deaf to the cry that hit, so I figured I did not like the idea ... but did not know if I myself would able to hide things a long time, because sometimes I can get myself to amaze me how much stuff I can get to have, even secret.
- have to know the same! Think you can be faking for life?
"Hmm ... I do not want you to know, Massu ... much less to be aware Koyama ... but ... we'll try it ... that does not mean to be with you the rest of my life ... ...
His words fell on me like a bucket cold water: I knew it was impossible to be together forever, but should not have been so ... so drastically tell me when ...
-Ne ... I do not say that ... demo ....
I did not know what to say to answer and end to engage in a coherent conversation.
"Besides ... if it is just a blip and I like girls ...
more Chas ... another disappointment for me ... even though I had to move just a few minutes, now it seemed that everything was going downwards. It was something I had to take today, if you wanted everything to be fine and in order.
-Mm ... and ... well ... okay ... is secret, so ... go to dinner or your mother will worry.
Honestly, I had taken off hunger, but not leave food on the table, I decided that something could go down to supper, and also pass broke the charged atmosphere that surrounded us now.
"You better not tell anyone.
then raised his voice to tell his mother that would not go down, and I said if we went down, his mother would ask. He also said the next morning, she would come out before so do not ask anything, to avoid tough questions.
turned off the light and sat on the bed, while I stretched out on the floor without finally understand what situation we were now.
- Are we going to sleep? Do you sleep on the floor or me?
And then wonder, began to take off clothes to get to sleep, but before I told him I would not mind sleeping on the floor, and then he said:
"I want you to sleep with me ... ...
And he got to sleep with only pajama bottoms, leaving the top uncovered.
- Sure? No ... do not know if I should ....
That's what I said, but actually sleeping on the floor I'm not very funny to say ... but do not put things more affected than they already were, so I decided to sleep on the floor.
- Do not you want? And he got
in bed back to me, and standing at one end of it, leaving a site to me.
I went to bed, but I made it back to him, because now the situation was very different to other occasions.
-Massu ... can you closer?
- ... Hai ...
Tego was a little nervous, and I could tell, because he turned around and stood in front of me. She could feel her breath close to me, and I do not know what to do. The next second, Tego said
"I'm nervous ... I want to kiss you but ... not because I can not ....
"I'm telling you. You can not because you have no clarifications or even yourself.
- May if I can! "he said," You're challenging vermin.
seemed to try to relax, and I was making because he was now able to joke a little.
"I did not challenge. xD.
"But you do not seem safe. I've kissed you twice. I really only play with me da.
And when I said give me back again, as if angry. It made me angry for a while, so I said something risque:
- How do you say that? Do you really think I'm playing with you? Why do you think I was sick all week? It was for you, baka! And do not tell me more times than I'm playing with you!
- just said it to kiss me! Do not you understand that what I most want is to kiss me!
Yes? Well now you would see. I groped with his hands, his face and kissed him. Then came to me quickly and while still kissing me, I tried to remove the shirt. He got her out, and I looked to see if he agreed I was doing. When I took off his shirt, dropped his hand timidly up to me and touched member, but I left both out of bed because of it, I ended up on the floor.
-Gomen ... forgive Massu.
grabbed his pillow and told me I better go to sleep down to what I said
- Matte! No need to go down if this is your home!
"I can not be in the same bed with you ... I can not resist ...
went out closing the door behind him, while I was there alone. I decided to go back to bed to try to sleep. Though I tried not to sleep too fast and think about what I had been doing until then, I fell asleep quickly.
The next morning at breakfast, Tego did not say a word that made me feel fatal, and that sure was angry last night. After breakfast, we went home quickly to avoid meeting his mother.
Arriving at a kiosk near his house, stared at one time a newspaper, but before I had time to get where he was, he walked so quiet, so I went ahead and asked him what happened.
-Na ... nothing. The breakfast, which did me no good. As
not convince me your answer, I turned back a moment to return to the kiosk, and then I read the following, which left me stone:
Tegoshi Yuya was seen with a girl entering a motel a few days ago.
And then, unable to stop, I let out a cry that made everyone who walked by that street, you stare at me.
- ehhhh!?
A little away from me, I could see Tego face paled when he saw me reading the newspaper that I had hidden.
- Tell me that was it, onegai!
-Etto ... shhhh ...
And took my jacket and went into an alley where there was none, and the silence was absolute: there was so much silence that scared me a little.
- Now tell me!
"I mean, but wait. Do not scream, please.
- As not want to shout!?
-SHHH! If you keep screaming not tell you anything.
"Okay, I calm down. Now tell me.
- What do you know?
He leaned against the wall with his hands in his pockets, with those pints, like a guy who went around as his character in the drama of last year Gachibaka.
"What brings this newspaper.
And I spent the day to see the cover, and then saw the news that was announced on its front page.
- Want to know if it's true? Only that?
"Well yes ... and what will you do with it ....
"Nothing, what do you think I want to do with it? What comes out there is truth to this motel and we were together ... in a room. I opened my eyes
bewildered unfinished believe what I was saying. Why the hell did not tell me before? Why not tell me yesterday?
- Why do not you tell me before?
"I did not think was important. Or is it? Non-intimate, alone ... and we kissed some more.
suddenly fell silent and looked toward the entrance of the alley where we come. Had to identify someone, because then I started running and shouted:
"Wait here, do not follow me.
I was waiting a long time in the alley, but as they came (and I have had at least one hour delay in the trial), I ran the company to try to reach a test piece, at least.
was three hours from Tego left me alone in the alley where, in the middle of the test and knowing that I could have plugged the phone, someone called me.
- Masuda What? You know you have to turn it off. Do not think I'll let you answer. Koyama was
who said that: something seemed to have bothered you today, part of my delay in the trial because I had not even spoken in the morning.
-Demo ...
- I do not care who it is!
- Onegai! "Go
quiet answer," he said Yamapi, Koyama who was grabbing for him not to leave behind mine.
I looked at the number I was calling and who was Tego, so I replied right away.
- Tego! Where are you? What?
"I hope in your house now, Massu.
- But I can not leave!
"Please ...
- Masuda! If not now enter
know ... And I saw between Yamapi and Shige, Koyama had grabbed.
-Koyama
not going to stop me. I do not know what the hell is wrong today, but it seems to me hate and yet I fail to see why T ^ T.
"Okay ... then I'll tell you everything, but ... I hope not to get mad. Just trust me. Everything you see is a lie. Just trust me.
He cut the phone immediately, without giving further explanation and without me saying anything more, and the next second he was shouting over to Koyama to come back into rehearsal.
- Massu! A test, that I have enough that Tego is not for you now want to test.
- HAI!
I ran into the room, turning off the phone to not ring again, and I put on my site to keep trying.
After a long hours rehearsing, at last it was over and I could go home. Way home, I passed a shop selling televisions and stuff, when I stopped to see something that caught my attention: apparently, a famous just announced her engagement ... but what caught my attention was the full story ...
Yuya Tegoshi confesses her relationship with Aiko
- Eeeeeh !
And again I scream in the middle of the street, as he had done that morning while reading the newspaper. I felt like everyone was watching me, so I booted to run as fast as his legs left me, and I had stayed home where I reunite with Tego.
I found him sitting at the door, slept and died of cold, and that he had no jacket and just a thin shirt with long sleeves.
- Tego! Wake up, go!
- Huh ...? "He said, half-sleepy todavía.
Massu ..." Come, come. And we have no one to talk. Virtually
flying took him inside, but the situation was urgent and could not beat around the bush.
- What ...? "He asked, still half asleep.
Without answering, turned on the TV to see what I saw on the way home.
-Aaa ... I told you to trust me. That is for people to never hesitate about us. Do not worry. Are you upset?
"Hmm ... maybe a little ... surprised me you know ...
"Excuse me, but you could not go to that we thought the two, and I had to take the decision alone. She knows nothing. She believes that truly love her.
- Really? So ... is a kind of cover?
-Si. I'll tell you later what happens. I do not want to be angry with me.
"Well ... if so, should not mad. But tell me ... Who was the girl who pursue this morning?
"These two days I will have to go to interviews with her ... we can not see us, forgive me ... She was a reporter ... she says she is sure I love you. First of all, I have to confess something ... That girl can come to like. This time we were together I felt many things with it ...
lowered my head and I felt like the heart shrank as if being gripped by a clenched fist it with great strength. The look also was stuck in the ground. I knew I could say that at any time, but would not give up so easily.
"We do not see in two days ... I'll be sending messages ... Ja ne
He approached the door to leave, but stopped just in time for him not to.
- Matte! It promises the message, onegai!
"I never cease to send a message Massu.
- Really? Whatever happens, will you still sending me messages?
He went with the intention of kissing, but stopped immediately.
- Why do you stop?
"If you ever do not receive a message from me ... I mean I love her.
"You promised to send messages during these two days. You must keep your word!
"If I do it because I love her, I've heard, but my feelings for you are becoming more intense.
After telling me that she closed her eyes and kissed my cheek first to get closer to my lips. In one of my drives, I grabbed it and ended I kissed her lips. Then he said,
"Then ... wait for you ....
-Ja ne ... Do not be sad. Everything will be fine.
and disappeared through the door, closing it behind him ... while I was sitting on the floor of the room, really hoping that everything went well.
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Tegoshi: "I'm not gay" After
massu kiss a lot going through my mind the talking and I answered but there were things that had me very worried or rather had an internal conversation, "I really felt for massu was love? Friendship was not because she felt a little more than that .... I was scared ... I had positive proof that women excite me ... and that makes me think I'm not gay ... but ... because I feel it in my heart when I watch it when I kiss .... Because things have to be so, maybe even needed time to clarify, massu I wonder if he was sure ... What ought to lie? ... everything was so Confuzed, first told me that my mind was just misinterpreting things I liked girls but like no cautibado me look for that gap in massu, what really happens to me massu is despair, I really do not love you and will only confuse the great love I have a brother with another that resembles it in nothing because even if it wants to tell massu not want guys like me ... makes me feel less of a man ... ...
Massu wanted it'll tell the guys, being together .. But not even I could if I wanted to accept even that was gay as he could tell others ... massu very sure of his feelings for me, I love him but ... I'm not sure to forget the fact that it is of the same sex to be happy at his side ... I think all the blame is mine for letting me take it others say but the truth. that's just what I can prove to massu everything I feel for him.
But my heart when I hear something different when I'm with percent massu things I had not felt with anyone .... Look at the door of my room my mother was listening to my conversation with massu, and that was the least wanted the vision of manly good son and my mother had to change quickly .... I did not want to be gay, do not want the world to look at me differently but still wanted to find out it was what felt massu .... I slept with him and kiss him again .... And I felt again my heart raced and I felt in love ... his lips felt that he was loved and that I loved him too but because ... it had to be massu ... because I had to be a man who would make me feel all these things .... I misplaced .... The only way to know whether it was gay was .... Top of tune with massu know if I really wanted .... If I'm excited ... it closer to me but he seemed nervous and asked me not long before going to sleep on the couch .... That meant that "I do not excited? As might be that I love if my body is not excited? You can be gay without you want the body of a man .... I do not understand .... I argued a bit with massu and I left the room if someone had I was uncomfortable to sleep by ... well take this situation needed to clarify what I thought ... but when you reach the chair I fell asleep ... tired.
The next morning we rose before okasan did not want me wonder what had happened he wanted to dodge the issue until at least I was sure about everything ... I stopped because something caught my attention was I? "In the newspaper? I was actually going to a hotel with a girl by the hand, I continued walking to massu not look but when I saw it I screamed take a hand and ran to an alley cornering, but when I was there, something caught my attention a face I recognized immediately, was the journalist again, not much thought needed to know he was doing there, let alone massu while running after her, had a camera in his hand insurance takes days following me, did not run very fast so that within minutes the alcáncese.
- What do you want? - Take the camera while staring
- have you done something that bothers you to follow me?
-no, but I think you if, for escape me-she stayed silent, I will give an interview, I want to clarify many things, either you want to know .... We gathered at min. here, then take me somewhere more discreet, out of nowhere I had an idea of how to be with massu without anyone reporting suspected something and help me do this, try to communicate with massu to ask if my idea was good take long to answer my call sure was busy with the trial but when I answer I could not tell the phone so I just asked him not to believe in what the TV would only trust me .... And call my old friend that was available just ask me not much just agree to go.
- What do you want to know? - Asked seriously as she took out a tape recorder, had to be careful with what he said.
- What exactly is the relationship you have with Masuda?
- as friends, I love him very much as a brother and party like we eat and sing at times, but I'm not gay and I hate if that's what you want to know
, but they look very close to be just friends, the journalist really thinks I like Massu and the worst is that it is wrong
-for I want to clarify that no such problems of misunderstanding, I have a girlfriend and do not want us to have discussions about these things- I was so surprised that not knowing what to ask look in his eyes was a mixture of joy and confusion
- do you have a girlfriend? - formal tone disappeared
-si, I think you're the one we photographed outside hotel the other night, you should know or at least figure it ... she is my girlfriend
- How I can know if it really is your girlfriend and you're not invented to eliminate my suspicions?
- Because I can give you a live interview right now if you want, she still is not my girlfriend have been dating for a long time so do not bother me take this opportunity to ask, and had no turning back would have to carry out the whole plan and nothing could go wrong, I stay away from her and raise your hand aiko calling to come over she kissed me and sat next to me taking my hand .... was strange because I had not told her anything and she acted just like I wanted to do so
- Love ... she is a reporter ...
- Reiko
- I'm Glad
aiko - aiko Well call you for something important .... We've been together a long time without a defined name .... How to say ... I'm not good at these things, I was really nervous but I knew it was all a lie, but ... would you be my girlfriend? - Aiko was shocked but looked at me without understanding did not take long to accept and kiss in front of Reiko as we to some pictures, the time could not truth runs counter to aiko, and find the right time because if I told insurance would kill me now , the reporter spent hours and at last we could go, I wanted massu go home but I stopped just aiko outside a hotel
- now you tell me the truth? - I shot an arm into the hotel for only one hour of the room sat in front of me waiting for an answer, I could not tell which one was using it to be with massu
- Because you really wanted to say ... I want to be you to know what my feelings ... blindfolded. I noticed this the other night .... When I say leave the name of massu "I think it was the right thing, I was just making things worse but I had told
- De ... true .... Do you like? - I did not answer that and kissed her to shut her up, she said Passionately kiss your lips drive me crazy, push it to the bed but when the going to lay it up on my legs open sitting on my cock, I continued my kissing desperately causing thousands of pleasures and desires, it was up legs below the skirt, this type of contact excites me and makes me wish I did not think things feel ... but makes me wonder about how I feel about massu ... more than I would like ...
She seemed all an expert so I had to which left me speechless desperate kiss me playing with me and when we are out in the blink of an eye
- 2 hours pay? Or we leave here and go home? - Coquette said while his hand went inside my pants touching my underwear smiled.
- Cre ... .. I think it's best to leave him here .... "She took his hand a little disappointed by my answer ... for now ...
smiled and helped me get up as he kissed me and we went hand in hand, leave it in his taxi and went home to Massu, he was not well I sat down to wait ... when I speak of many things to explain my plan and did not seem too upset that the disagreement did not seem to do their part and annoying things that I wanted ....
I approached him to kiss him but stopped maybe not wanted now .... He made me promise messages you send those messages a day but maybe I serve
-because you stop, I looked sad at me, if ever
not receive a message from me .... It means that I love her
I reproach myself that I promised to never stop sending the message that this was the best way of saying that if he sent a message meant that I was not gay, not so much if I fell in love with her or not but what I clarified in those days .... While I was busy interviewing and would like to see massu, really did not want to say all the things I said ... I was upset but all I did was for him, so we could be quiet without being chased but did not take account ... actually I was doing for him? Or? "I really liked aiko?
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